How the hell to stay positive?

I try and work really hard to keep my pessimistic tendencies under control. All through the silly season, I've been pretty much a media no fly zone because I've been so busy. So catching up on the news has not been a great thing. I'm really getting bummed out at all the people who are so willing to forsake someone's life for what? Land? Territory and all the bragging rights that goes with it? Religion? Control? Control of what really? Is it that important?

I know it's far more complex, but right now, I'm feeling it's just one big giant pissing contest, and it's not worth it. I have seen such ugliness on the forums in the past few days about the whole Israel/Palestine issue. People basically dismissing the lives of children, babies for this violence and justifying it. Make no mistake, I love Canada and I feel it's my home, but I'd sooner pack up and leave than getting to a point where I don't give a rats ass about killing someone innocent. I don't understand how people can live with such hatred in their hearts. Granted, I haven't lived in as horrible a place.

But there are many people who have gone through unspeakable horrors and still come out with the ideal that justice needn't be horribly violent. What differentiates these people? When I get all wonky and spiritual, I sometimes think that those people are messengers from the being up in the sky. They are sent to remind us of forgiveness, justice, dignity, grace, wisdom. We've had so many of these examples in this lifetime, and I have to say, we are ignoring them big time.

I saw a post today that implored people to think of the lives of people on one side lost. I told them that I'd be thinking the lives of countless lost on both sides and hope that those responsible will get theirs in this life or the next (BTW, I'm not speaking in terms of violence, I just hope they come to the realization that their actions have ended the lives of many and whatever shred of humanity is left in them will make it very hard for them to sleep for the duration of their lives). This was met by just vile things about the other side. I was shocked, I've never seen anything online so disgusting about another group of people and the blatent disregard for them as humans and I've seen some vile nasty shite!

Anyhow, as if that weren't enough, this is really just a drop in the bucket for the millions of other shitty things going on in the world. Violence one on one, genocides, hello Sudan? People being neglected en masse, left to starve and die of perfectly treatable diseases. I'm a downer eh? I'm sorry, I'm just feeling really depressed thinking of the state of the world. It's a new year and I should be rallying my positivity, but I'm at the point where I feel like crying for everyone. Hopefully tomorrow I can be at a point where my energy levels are better and I can rally my pissy-ness to contribute in some small way.